Family Trials

Today was a hard day for me. My MIL had to go into a nursing home a month or so ago. She has Alzheimers and was getting very bad. Well today we had an auction at her home. My husband Steve is one of four brothers and three of them came to the auction, one from Florida, one from Virginia and my husband and I attended the auction. I cried when we got to the house and most of the items had already been moved outside or to the basement for the sale. I think it was because it seemed real to me for the first time. I am the total optimist! I think things are never that bad until I actually see it. And for me, seeing that empty house made me realize that my mother in law is really in a home, and does not know anyone anymore. My husbands one brother that lives right near there could not bother to come. That seemed wrong and Steve was upset, but that is another whole story. I think one of the things that bothered me most was knowing how hard she had worked all her life, raising four sons on her own. She was a great lady and I will miss that part of her. But she is happy, she loves for anyone to come see her. She does not miss us when we don`t get up, because she does not remember us. Everything is brand new to her. Kevin, the yougest son took her some ice cream and she was delighted with it, it was like something she had never eaten or even seen.
Maybe that is the best thing about this horrible disease.

Friends

I love the computer! Want to know why?? Because of the great friends you meet. Today got me thinking about how many wonderful woman I have met because of the computer. Woman from all over the world, from all walks of life, woman like me with a love of quilting, crocheting, whatever. With the way we work nowadays, we hardly have time for anything besides that and family. Friendships are so hard to keep up with in this modern day, we are tired after work, we don`t get out as much, or have the time to "do lunch, go shopping, just sit and talk" but we can "visit" with all our friends every night right in our living room, wearing our pj`s! What more could we ask. And the friendships are real! We truly care about each other, we share hopes, dreams and joys and sorrows, right here and now!! Don`t ever tell me that my friends on this computer are not real, because we all know they are. I laugh and I cry right along with them.
I would do whatever I could for them and know they feel the same way. Some I will meet face to face, lots I already have, some I will never see their faces, but they are as important to me as the ones I have met. Guess I just wanted to let all my friends know how much they mean to me!!
Tammy